"It has begun..."

Ran my hands through my hair this morning to check... yup... handfuls. ::sigh::
Oh well, time for the shearing and tightening up my ball cap band. Debating whether to go to a haircutters or have Amber do it this weekend. I was just over there babysitting while they had a night out again. Didn't think of it at the time, but then again, I hadn't checked my hair yet either.
It is hitting me a bit though. I'll probably avoid looking at myself in the mirror for a while..it's different with guys losing their hair (I think... ). Guys lose their hair more than women do later in life so it's kind of expected eventually. Women... we primp and preen and style and make sure it looks good... I haven't been that hair conscious but it is a style thing. Good thing I wasn't still wearing it waist long!
THAT would be demoralizing! Now it's just... big sigh...do I get a wig or not... wear hats all the time... the whole chemo deal.(I even noticed some eyebrow hair on my towel this morning). My only hope is when it grows back in it'll be thicker than before, I remember having thick hair when I was younger.
While I was in the shower I thought of a rather sad joke..
"What do Japan and I have in common?  We both have fallout."
Not funny really but that's the way my humor runs... my family knows this, we all have a rather odd sense of humor in the face of adversity.
Silver bouncy ball time!
At the rate I'm experiencing this, it should be all gone in a week! ::SIGH::
Oh, finances aren't doing well either, IRS has caught up with me and is taking a their payment from last taxes out of my paycheck. Haven't had an opportunity to hang on the phone with them until someone answers to get it lowered to 10% instead of 25%.

Need breakfast now.. eggs..on toast or Mickey D's.... no white bread in the house... I'll figure it out.

A gem from Mark Twain this time, oddly tying in with the quotes about heroes:

"Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear - not absence of fear."

'Nuf said.