I am stunned to tears...

because I am so blessed to have such wonderful people surrounding me.
This week was supposed to be my last week at work, since I only work two days a week at the fabric store it was to be my last two days.
Well, in a show of their support and EXTREME generosity, they gave me enough gift cards to feed myself for months as well as put gas in my car.
Crying? Oh yeah... lots of it. On my break of course. Because that's when I was presented with both a hand painted wood angel named 'Hope' with a pink ribbon around her neck, and the gift cards stuffed inside a beautiful 'get well' card.
"There is a circle of caring all around..."
on the inside it said, "and you are right in the middle."
That of course was surrounded by everyone there sending me good wishes, thoughts and prayers.

You never know how special you are until someone tells you in such a way that it beats you senseless with emotion.
I've always considered myself run-of-the-mill, but recently I've tried to be more giving, (not recently as in the last few weeks but the last few months before all the chaos) knowing that karma has a way of working around. I have also realized how much I have influenced other people, just in chance meetings, a few words here and there, picking up a piece of trash, taking care of someone else's things. At times I feel like the main character in 'IT's a Wonderful Life'. Touching lives around me just by being me. It's a self awareness thing that's recently crept up on my consciousness that is kind of weird.
I've made all these plans, put certain things in place to take care of my job when I'm not going to be there and now all of a sudden, that's thrown out the window. Like this was a practice run or a false alarm.

'This has been a test of Breast Surgery Departure Preparedness. If this had been a real departure, the persons involved would be dealing with the situation well prepared for your absence. Now they have to put up with you for a few more weeks.'

You know me, if there's a chance for humor in a bad situation, I'll take it for all it's worth.
Seriously though, I am stunned and grateful for everyone's well wishes, prayers, thoughts and offers of help. I realize in the past I may not have been more needy than helpful to some and almost neglectful to others. This is not to say I don't care it's that I somehow can't show it in a way that truly matters.

Thank you.