Good feeling gone, the other shoe drops

 But first, the weather.  We got some good rain and it's still cloudy so really nice weather that may last an other day or two. I went and checked on the garden and my main raised bed, only wet about a ½ inch down. Kind of figured that but can't do any serious garden work yet.

Caught Rocky in the window perfectly just wish the background was better. Something caught his attention for a good half minute during a break in the rain yesterday. I was able to take him out on his leash today and snap some pictures of the cloudy sky and the garden.

Because of the crumbling eaves (despite them repairing the gutters last year) the water still drips off at the railing and puddles right in front of our door. Had to put a towel down to keep the water from splashing inside too badly but then in the evening the wind came up and the rain pelted down even more so had to close the door. It's wonderful really without any worry about flooding in our areas.

Now then about that shoe drop. We both got a letter from Sharp about the change in Medicare coverage. Since we were going directly through them (private company) coverage changes (see previous post about loud rant) so now we have until December 31 to set up a new medicare coverage like an HMO if we were working. United Health Care accepts Sharp thankfully and initial checking shows both hospitals and a doctor are in the network. So far so good, the drug coverage on the other hand is separate and we have to do a lot of work to make sure that all our meds are covered. I already got the letter saying I'm covered in Medicare but not sure how that dovetails with the new system coming up.

Some plans have a zero copay for doctors and specialists, others it's anywhere from 25-35 for specialist visit. I'm not sure if GI, Oncology and Cardiac are specialists so have to check on that then there's that OTC benefits card. Our current card is $140 quarterly and I rarely use it all, new system it drops to anywhere from no benefits to $40 quarterly. We use that card for things like rubbing alcohol, toothpaste, mouthwash, bandages, Jon's nose spray and other things. Leave it to say we are stocking up for the next three months as much as we can and won't be shopping at CVS to make the money stretch.

So yeah, that sent Jon into a depression due to him not knowing how to properly search things he thought he wasn't covered because he has Medicaid (MediCal). I told him, I'll do all the computer work and let you know, we'll get through this.  I am SO glad I got my surgery and treatment done before all this! The only thing left is getting my cataracts taken care of and I can bet that isn't covered 100% any longer either.

 Yay for cloudy skies and actual weather! Only issue is the only pants I have are either sweatpants or shorts. Time for sweatpants it is, since my jeans are in the laundry and the soonest we can wash is Friday. By next weekend it'll be back up to 90+ then dropping down again so welcome to the roller coaster fall weather season!

You know the weather has been hot when even a tough as nails succulent like the Jade looks totally thrashed and toasted. It's a mess and honestly not surprised but still kind of sad, though I know by spring it'll be looking better after all the leaves recover. It's so dense I doubt any water got through to the roots.

So there it is, more updates and not the kind I like to have. Angry, frustrated, anxious and stressed but putting those aside have to keep moving forward and make sure things get done we we have what we need for the future. 

It's actually raining!

 Woke up to cloudy skies (as I figured would happen) and the definite smell of rain in the air. We got out the door to do some quick groceries and by the time we finished it started to pitter patter on the car as we left the store parking lot. That was around 11:30 or so and the temperatures are in the 70's. Feels like late spring in Seattle last time we were there.

We forgot it was Saturday and the store was more crowded than patience tolerated but we made it out without being too rude to people. Typical annoying types; older lady with rolling cart and small wire haired dog that clearly was not an assistance dog, a trio of one male and two females in middle eastern/Pakistani robes (absolutely no prejudice here but it is rather cliche) who seemed to think this as a grand market including the parking lot and walked in the middle of everywhere. Harried moms with three kids (been there done that), totally unaware other ethnic types who stand right where you need to get something (the green onions finally!) I said excuse me and he stepped back but shimmied his cart up against the display.....I had to repeat, excuse me then 'you're standing right in front of what I need' and I just leaned forward and grabbed two bunches over his cart.

  It really came down with big drops by the time we got home and hustled inside. Such a great feeling and then one rolling thunder going up the stairs so it was really awesome. Jon kept saying 'take your time' and meantime I wanted to dance in the rain.

I don't have a good picture of the rain out my window but it stopped for about an hour and now has started up again. I can smell the wild grass and bushes on the distant hills and reminds me of so many rainy days when I was growing up and then camping later on as an adult. It's one of my comfort smells if you want to put it that way. Hardly any breeze now just the rain dripping down the tree and eaves. Happy sigh. The only thing that would really complete this is a nice deep covered porch to sit and knit and watch the rain come down.

Didn't sleep as well as I wanted but doing okay now and don't feel the need for a nap but it's 'early'. But my stomach skin on either side is ITCHING!!!! That's to be expected when your skin is no longer stretched. I wasn't balloon tight fat before but the skin has been stretched for years and now it's relaxing a bit. Not to mention the nerves that were damaged in the 'fat grafting' are starting to regenerate so just.... uncomfortable and not sure if I can use lotion on the areas. Won't do any good to message doctor because I won't get a message back until next week and my next appointment is Tuesday. Wednesday is my follow up with GI doctor 'post op' so to speak, get to tell him that my system has leveled out finally but that could be from meds and surgery. Annoying thing about this 'support girdle' is it keeps folding up at the bottom when I'm sitting down mostly on the sides and back of course. Same with the sides on my bra as well, just minor annoying that almost constant and compared to the alternative, I'll put up with it.
As for further Birthday Gastro-shenanigans, will decide whether to go to Habit or Rubio's on Thursday when we're in the neighborhood of both establishments for Jon's appointment. Will see how long the food celebration will go but still have get that chocolate cake in somewhere.

Going to go work on some knitting and enjoy the damp dribbles outside from the inside of my bedroom. 

Semi-unbound for birthday 'shenanigans'

 Not feeling free and flouncy quite yet (like I was even there at any time) but definitely can lay on my back to sleep and not wearing as tight a girdle with no extra padding. YAY! Then my internal system said, 'oh yay the straight is open again!' 'nuf said on that. Still can't take a full on shower just yet but at least can keep my back to the water and do my hair and scrub the rest of me. Washed my hair in the kitchen sink today with Jon's help and washed face and neck. Just that little bit helped my mood. 

So doctor visit to check everything went well, now have two bras that will fit for free and might have to actually think about an actual girdle. Because you see, they sucked some fat out of my belly and a little on the sides which makes for a very saggy tummy. I remember mom wearing a girdle and finally gave up on it in frustration because it didn't seem to make a difference in her appearance (I think?). 

 The shorts I'm currently wearing are another find from the table and fit somewhat large even with the extra padding before. Well even less padding now and I may have to put them back on the table because they really don't fit anymore. They're men's cargo shorts and every pocket but the front two have velcro, the back pockets aren't big enough for phone and inconvenient to put wallet there.  Will try shopping for shorts again sometime.

The weather is still warm so the AC spending still goes on and have to wait another four or five days to see what this month's bill is like. Hoping I can split it again because the projected bill was frightening. It's only been in the 90's today and yesterday but that is still waaayyy too warm for comfort. Despite the weather, we persist.

We did our civic duty because the world is depending on us to do the right thing. I can only hope and pray that this and the next election isn't mucked up like the last primary that put us in this situation. I don't make much comment on political stuff here but it is so, very, important that people start paying attention and fix this. It's already too late for short term fix, the damage has been done so deeply that the entire world will spend decades fixing what has happened. It is no longer a matter of resisting it is a matter of actions. 

Okay that's done. I got more birthday monies so YARN and ICE CREAM is on the list and a few other things (or might have to toss some of it at the SDGE bill SIGH). Although the ice cream will probably come out of the food money because we still have a chunk of that in the account. Since I can drive a bit more comfortable will make sure to get those green onions! I made pork carnitas in the crock pot today, tossed it all together in the morning and it was finished by the time I woke up from my nap. Jon's doing dishes and cleaning that up at the moment but I think I'll have another pot pie for my evening food. We got to the pharmacy today as well so he got his meds and nose spray yay!

For the first of many birthday food stops we went to Greek Chicken and got a BOGO free gyros sandwich since we had to get fries $20 for two gyros and 2 fries is a good price to pay. Might go to Rubio's tomorrow with a similar situation, buy an entree get one free and have to eat it there which means another $20 meal but that's still a good deal for tacos or burritos for two with sodas. It'll be a Saturday so not sure about crowd situation and shopping. 

Chocolate cake will happen as well at some point but single serving. Fridge is a little emptier without the Costco pumpkin pie but still chock full. Fresh salsa was made yesterday as well and I realized we didn't have any chips. I put it on a sourdough bread sandwich with scrambled egg and bacon this morning, it was delicious. 

That is all for now

Despite the nap I am still flagged out due to internal system being whacked again.  

 

 

 

Today was....interesting. Solo in the ED

 Summary: took myself to ED to get my right leg checked for possible blood clots. Mostly clear, minor surface clot back of the knee. Up blood thinner for a week and wear compression socks.

Backstory: I have had restless legs for several weeks and have a med that seemed to be working. Just before going into the hospital my right leg didn't seem to be responding as well. Knee jerks, foot twitches and then recently after surgery my calf was feeling cramped but not painful.

I haven't been able to have a good nights sleep in days because of this and last night was the worst. Couldn't get settled despite laying down and feeling very cozy. Leg would start twingeing and etc so I had to get up and down up and down so I didn't wake Jon (not very successful with that, he came out of the bedroom to use the bathroom a few times). Between 11pm and 5 I may have gotten about an hour of semi conscious sleep. 

I then realized that my right calf and thigh were semi-crampy and then I connected the dots. Possible blood clots? Not wanting to take any chances on this since I've been off the blood thinner for over a week, I decided to call for a Lyft and take myself to the Grossmont ED. Grossmont is much closer and still in the same system. I had to wake up Jon though, let him know what was going on, speaking in slow small words so his sleep fogged brain could understand (not a slight on him at all we've all been there). Ordered up a Lyft for less than $15 (due to time of day and distance) and go to the emergency entrance a little before 6.

First off.. security. I forgot they have a more strict security system and the guard rifled through my small knitting purse and said I couldn't take my project with me because the needles could be used as a weapon. 

SIGH all right. He took my little sock project and bagged it then gave me a receipt to pick it up when I left. I checked in almost exactly at 6 am and let me tell you, I have never seen an emergency lobby that empty.

Yes, it was the dreaded 'Q' they have a superstition about mentioning how quiet it is and then they get slammed so I didn't say anything. The last time I was there was with the vertigo and it was packed. This time it was quiet as a baby nursery to the point I could hear the tv's all the way at the other end of the waiting room that were in a side room with more seating. 

Triage almost immediately, relatively speaking and then being taken back to an actual bed in another fifteen minutes. Like everything, time moves slower in the ED, They did an ultrasound of my leg, thigh joint to calf  and then waited another hour or so for the doctor to actually look at the images.  Uncomfortable, in shorts cotton blankets weren't very warm when the young male nurse brought them to me, then I realized my side was kind of damp.

If I'm going somewhere with an extended wait time I always bring a bottle of water. Well, apparently I didn't close the lid tight enough and then was leaning on my bag. Bag got soaked, shorts and my shirt in the area got soaked and I realized my keys (electronic car key included) were in the bag, as well as charger and cord for phone. Yikes! Everything was okay thankfully but on top of it being cold and me wearing shorts, half my bottom was now damp.

Superficial clot behind the knee not big enough to be scary and it was close to the surface not the deep ones they really pay attention to. The doctor supposedly ordered more of my eliquis because I'm supposed to double up on the dose for a week and she felt I would run out.. Haven 't gotten the message from the pharmacy probably because it looks like an incorrect order. I have enough for the double dose at least and then some.   When I pick that up I will look at compression stockings for my calves as well. She noted there was some serious swelling and the socks will help with that as well. 

Total time in ED almost 6 hours. That's not bad at all. Discharge papers were printed at 11:20 am and I think I walked out around noon. 

Stopped at Trader Joes for some oranges to make carnitas in the crock pot tomorrow because the plan today was going to be scrambled eggs with salsa, cheese, bacon and sour cream for breakfast and then throw the pork into the crock pot with appropriate seasonings and cook that all day. Lunch was shrimp stir fry with extra broccoli and mushrooms. At least lunch got done. It was delicious and now it's time to try and take a nap.

Adventures! 

 

 

 

Progress is forward as long as it's two forward and one back

 The weather is still absolutely furnace level outside. We had to run the AC all night again because, despite it being in the low 70's outside, pulling that cooler air inside or pushing the warm air out at a high exchange rate is impossible. So I did not sleep well at all until after the sun came up and my body settled down.

This was day before yesterday, basically the same since then.  It's supposed to cool down over the weekend and turn tropical with possible rain. Right. It's kind of breezy outside from what I can see out my window but as I said, it's still a blast furnace.

I am still uncomfortable but managed to feel good enough to wash my hair yesterday and my arms with a washcloth. Wearing an actual button up shirt and shorts for a while today as well.  So very much more feeling human-ish. Can't WAIT to get to the doctors on Friday and hopefully get some of this binding and the drain out. I'm not supposed to drive but have no choice. A little bit itchy going on which is good because that means things are healing and shifting. I should be back to relative normal by Thanksgiving. Lord willing and the creek don't rise, as my dad used to say.

I really wanted to make the Shrimp and Bacon chowder and have everything but the green onions. I've passed on them the last two times because they were so thin and scrawny it wasn't worth it. They normally are about the thickness of my little finger but the last bunches were the size of a pencil.  Anyway I decided to use a free delivery coupon for the grocery store and after working out the list vs the cart I had about $50 of groceries, salsa fixings, some canned goods, crackers and cheese but the one thing I failed to double check.... green onions. 

I need to find the Charlie Brown frustration gif. The ONE thing I purposely wanted in that shopping cart and I didn't get them. Have to go back anyway because the delivery guy substituted onion and chive cream cheese with 'low fat' whatever cream cheese instead. I wanted the flavored kind because I bought some Ritz crackers for snacks. At least I got the extra sharp cheddar so that works out. We have food enough and still money left over.

I almost forgot to pay the SDGE bill though. Was supposed to do that on Thursday when I got the money but other things were on my mind and didn't remember until day before yesterday. Supposed to pay for Costco before the end of the month as well. At least I've got the car insurance paid, which btw is going to be less after this month, yay! And got a letter from CalFresh that our monthly food money will be upped by $26 (314 to 340) so we'll have a bit more money for food for the next year. It all balances out right?

Jon once again didn't get moving or I slept in more and by the time he got himself together it was already 98 outside. So no walking to the pharmacy again. I'm gong to have to see about getting him up early on purpose so he can get his prescriptions and nose stuff. 

We have both filled out our ballots and have them signed and sealed. I know mailing them is still safe and Ballot Trax will notify us when they are received but was considering finding the closest drop box just in case. The reason why I mention it is the post office is half a block down the street from the pharmacy so very convenient.

Okay time for nap which means moving Rocky from his comfy spot on my side of the bed. He then either settles on the bed or heads to the kitchen and lays on the rug in there. Jon's already napping so my brain is definitely feeling the afternoon nap fog.

 

 

 

It's not a lot of pain but still.Ramblings

 It makes it difficult to move from sitting to standing and all that but mostly it's the fact I'm essentially wearing a binder on top and a girdle on bottom. If you've ever recovered from surgery, you know the feeling. 

That was at 11:20 or so this morning it got a bit warmer and currently at 5 pm it is 103. Needless to say we had the AC on low all night with the bedroom door closed. Front half of the apartment even with door and windows open never got below 84 and since the thermometer in the kitchen is next to the west facing window it gets up to 90 in that corner. I shifted the small but mighty turbo fan so it blows across the blinds and reduces the heat collecting there.

Part of my brain is thinking, 'why am I so stiff? I shouldn't feel this bad right?' My brain can't comprehend the toll even 'non-invasive' surgery does on an older body. Any body for that matter right? I keep thinking, 'come on how hard can this be to recover from just an overnight stay in the hospital?' I guess I'm going back to January when I had that serious bout of imbalance and almost bounced back immediately. Well not bounced back but more mobile than I am now. Considering I had double boob adjustment (reduction on left and minor increase on the right) and liposuction for the right side for the increased padding. That's considered 'non-invasive' but let me tell you my body is screaming 'invasion!' 

Just had a wonderful bowl of Chedder Broccoli soup with bacon bits thanks to my forethought shopping on Thursday. Got the two pack of soup and the big pack of pre-cooked bacon. Jon picked up a two pack of clam chowder (that's all his). I had a sausage egg croissant sandwich this morning for breakfast, lunch was BLT's and then the soup just now. So we're eating well and speaking of that, got the official letter from CalFresh that our monthly allotment will be upped to $340 from $314. I have no idea why it keeps going up and down like that when nothing has changed. Maybe it's the increase in utilities and the medical extras but I won't be amending anything at all. Just have to remember all my answers next time and then whatever else happens between now and then. We only spent about half of our money on Thursday so with the food we have and me not cooking much for the short term we might come out ahead next month (and since I said that will end up short or zero ).

Sleeping is the biggest inconvenience. I don't have a travel neck pillow, no extra pillows other than the mostly flat ones from the sofa, so I can fall asleep maybe for an hour or two and wake up almost more sore than before. Jon was entertaining the idea of getting a pair of recliners instead of the sofa and it just isn't going to work right now. All sorts of things need to happen before that can even be considered to rearrange everything in the front room. 

I have said before I'm not fond of my surgeon, he's not very amiable, doesn't offer a lot of information, always seems like he has more patients than he can handle so doesn't remember what I think are important details. When he came in to see me before I was discharged it was ::shake the hand how you doing, let's see how things look, everything looks good, when is our next appointment, Friday then will see you then shakes my hand:: and then he left. Didn't tell me what happened, how long the surgery was no details at all and I just felt like he was going through the motions. Would have been nice to say 'the reason why you're bound up like this is..' Oh and I'm not even seeing him personally on Friday, I'm seeing one of his assistants. Not a bad thing because they are more personable than he is by far. I do hope I don't ever need to see him again.

So day two post surgery, slow to heal haven't had a soda since Thursday but am holding off on that as long as possible because I'm not as dependent on them as before so if we go out to have food next week I might have one. Going to storage after the appointment is right out. I've barely done any knitting for that matter, the way I've been sleeping (ending up sleeping on that hand in an odd position which aggravates the tendonitis) and the hand-eye coordination being off from surgery just not good for knitting.

Okay that's all for today. No idea what we're having for meals tomorrow but I do know we have options.
 

Home and semi mobile

 Yesterday was pretty much a blur especially after surgery. I was slurring my words, couldn't move too fast and surprisingly got dizzy and nauseous if I did. That's the anesthesia of course I was fine about six hours later. I think. Definitely better in the morning but was still getting up a few times overnight to pee.

 First full meal. Bean and cheese enchilada and did not choose wisely with the potatoes and gravy. Enchiladas 8 out of 10, potatoes 2/10.  But I had orange jello and chocolate pudding and tortilla soup 8/10 but was mostly full by the time I got to it. The Sharp Memorial Hospital for Women and Children does good with their meals. Good portions and good tasting choices, no microwave meals for them.

Slow going right now for movement, bound top and middle but more on that later. Just wanted to check in and say I'm alive and recovery is progressing as much as it can.