Good news at least

 I know this is rare to have more than one post in a week but news and events are like that. I'm feeling better today, I think I had a minor breakdown yesterday after trying to keep things bottled up. With the good news today I'm doing much better. Still tired though but I got word back from the doctor:  

"Your afirma testing of the thyroid nodule that was biopsied returned benign, which means low risk of cancer. The endocrinologist recommends repeat ultrasound in 1 year for surveillance. Please make a note to yourself that you will be due for repeat ultrasound in 1 year."

So that's good at least and good news/bad news: I paid SDGE, which was only $85 but that puts me about $30 short for my phone bill. I'm looking at the paypal money and seeing how much I can shift over for gas and the shortage for the phone and still have something for Disneyland trip.

Better shot of the fall colors tree. The sky was slightly lighter up at the top in reality but still made for a great contrast shot. 

I just filled out the form online for the jury summons, don't have to worry about that until December 5. Will have to put a reminder on my calendar for that and keep the postcard on my desk as a constant visual reminder.

Mentally still a little fragile whenever I hear anyone of the 'fence neighbors' holler and whoop about something. Can't trust anyone in my complex anymore so it feels like we're isolated in a red corner of the county. Even in the state for that matter. It's still very depressing and am trying not to look at facebook too much because of different articles popping up.

It's not that the mentality for me is 'dangit our side lost'. it's a matter of 'the world is so screwed right now and it feels like so few of us realize that'. All the warning signs were there, for everyone to see, it felt like there were people who saw it and yet something happened. I believe deep down that some cheating happened somehow. It wasn't exactly a landslide but all the places that shouldn't have turned did.

I'm going to try and not let that get to me and start planning my day at Disneyland, immerse myself in a place that is a (hopefully) untouched world to evade the real world for a while. I asked Jon when did we want to get up there and gave him the two options. 1: We wake around 4 or 5 and leave by 6 to get up there close to opening around 8, or wake around 6, leave around 8 and get there by 10. I'm shooting for somewhere in between considering I forgot about morning freeway traffic. Maybe if I pump him up a bit the day before he'll wake up super early like last time and we can stop at Starbucks on the way for breakfast (about $25 if I remember correctly for two drinks and two sandwiches round that up to $30 just because).

Tickets and parking are paid for and need to remember to get that loaded on my phone or printed out before we go. Bring my backpack I bought last time, load up with water bottles maybe get some snacks but don't know what since Jon isn't a snack kind of guy. Will see what happens.

Positive thoughts only.