It's really difficult to think when there's 'Dora the Explorer' or some other show going on behind me. I sit down at the computer and within five seconds can't remember what the heck I wanted to do. Fifteen interruptions later... remember but then forget in a fit of short attention span theater and I'm off on another tangent.
I need my house back to myself. I need my life back to just me and Devon. April can't come soon enough.
I have so many things that I want to do but never can stay focused enough to get them even started or down on paper.
I don't have to go in to work until 11 today due to rain. This cuts into my paycheck for next time but we have an extra hour from the safety meeting yesterday morning. Not enough to make up for the lost two hours out of my day....but it's something.
I have enough in the bank right now to barely cover the rent. Not enough to cover bills. This is what I have been living with for years. The only way to get out of it is either come up with more income or wait for another fourteen months and then find a smaller, cheaper place. But then, in fourteen months I'll be supposedly taking off for a Walkabout. The plan then would be to get rid of, sell, and otherwise pare down my belongings in order to put them in storage while I'm gone. I'm still debating whether to take a leave off work or just two weeks. This would require me to save my vacation pay until spring of course, and save some from this vacation. I plan on only taking a week this year and try to put as much away as possible even if it's a twenty here and there every paycheck. That was the plan last year too, and that didn't work either. I need money now. Every week. At the beginning of the month for rent....
And the county says I don't qualify for any aid because I make too much money. On paper. Yeah, if my paychecks all came at the beginning of the month, I could afford rent and bills but not food.
Any other ideas out there? My earrings aren't selling because I can't afford doing the advertising to get it out in the public.
(brb, interruption 55)
This is getting really frustrating. If I had a laptop I would just pack it up and go park somewhere to get this done. I love my kids and Ava a lot but this is pushing my patience right now.
I want to be a writer, I want to knit, do cross stitch, make jewelry, all these creative things and I can't do that if I have family or people around me. I need my music and whatever I am currently working on. And then my computer keeps telling my my startup disk is getting full. I wasn't getting those messages until one of Amber's tech friends tried to 'fix' the memory. I need to get some cd's and offload the music and pictures, separating my stuff from the kids.
I'm hoping that the killer class last week is on this weeks paycheck, but I doubt that. It's going to be on the next paycheck. But I'll likely have more than two students this week too, so that'll help after that.
Quick run down of things that have to happen in twelve months:
Save money
Keep car running (and in my possession)
Teach Devon to drive and get his license
Find/acquire laptop
Send emails/letters to possible contacts while on trip
Find contacts for donations of needed items: Camera, laptop, car care, money.
Okay, have get ready for work... it's cold and rainy...yay.
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