It itches!!

Other than that....
I've got a good size bruise in my cleavage and can't really scratch it when it's itchy. I also can't take a shower until tomorrow.
Going over to see Amber and them today, looks like it's going to be warmer and possibly sunnier. I hope. Tired of all this overcast.
It's weird how Talib is trying to focus on the long term thoughts (as much as his befuddled mind can ;) ) and I'm just plugging along with day to day life. I remember an old saying regarding enlightenment from a book I read.
'Before enlightenment; carry water, chop wood. After enlightenment; carry water, chop wood.'
I guess that's where I'm at. No matter what the prognosis is, life has to go on. Just because an ailment is named, doesn't mean I have to change my immediate tracks and habits. Yeah, I'm supposed to be planning 'just in case' but I've never been one for plans. They always get cancelled, changed, or somehow never turn out the way I wanted.
That started when I was little and made plans to meet with a friend without telling my parents and when they said no, it felt like they had changed their minds. But they never knew because I had made my plans in my head first.
Trips to Disneyland, all kinds of plans or events (birthday parties for my kids) have never turned out well if I told too many people.
So why make decisions before I know the outcome?
Oddly enough, I wrote out a few years ago 'my final arrangements' the document is still on my computer. Nothing really legal, just some distribution things and my services preference. Weird stuff like that. I'll get it 'official' I suppose if I need to, but as far as my medical condition is concerned, I have a lot less to worry about than Talib.
We're both hoping that neither of us have cancer and we can go on with our lives.
Now that I have the technology to make a video, I've been considering doing that as part of that 'final arrangements' or maybe a video blog. Problem is, I've always had 'performance anxiety'. (That has a whole different connotation these days compared to when I was in theater). In other words, I hate watching myself on a video and get nervous reading for a camera. I've done tons of classes in front of people, I'm not as nervous as I used to get but I still am very self conscious of what I'm doing.
Having a video of myself that I have to edit is just too creepy, especially when it's right in front of me. (Wouldn't know how to edit anyway and would need the copy above the monitor so I'm looking in the camera.)

Anywhoooo. I have to get ready for work now. My Avatar video 'Jake's Journey Home' is not quite done. I've been staying up until midnight or 1 trying to get it edited and timed right. Just not quite there yet. I'm on the last verse of the song and have to come up with at least seven or eight more stills to fit in and then the final viewing. It'll get posted on YouTube and possibly my google page as well.
I'm going to try and remake another slideshow as well and use right tools next time!

TTFN!