The doctor called...

It's positive for breast cancer.
(insert obligatory crying here)

Let's see, good news.... it's small and we caught it early.
Bad news.... well that kind of is self explanatory.

I have the greatest family and friends I could have right now. (Like they would be horrible any other time?)
See, this is how I react to bad news. I don't like being upset, sad or whatever. I like to laugh and look at the lighter side of the situation. I told my roommate and after the obligatory hug I said that I'll bounce back. Hit real hard, but I'll bounce back. Her response was, 'like a bouncy ball with glitter inside!'
It's not the end of the world really. It's the beginning of a very, very long haul that will really, really test my endurance and stamina. And my resilience. Which like anything else that gets old, doesn't have as much resilience as it used to have.
I have never liked needles poking me. The biopsy was a very big ordeal for me even though it was minor in relative terms. (Denial and avoidance is setting in now).
I can't run away from this.
The only time I've been in the hospital is for babies and accidents. I don't like knowing that down the road there is going to be some serious tests, surgery, feeling sick, all kinds of stuff that will hamper my normal way of life.
I wanted to go through the rest of my life just cruising along, getting old with out any discomfort or issues, then die in my sleep.
Remember what I said about making plans? They always get screwed up.
I have to go pee now. That system dump thing I mentioned before. I've had a lot of water today and a major emotional shock.
Although, as soon as they said I had to have a biopsy I knew that was it. Deep down I knew if they wanted to take samples, it was going to be positive. I just was hoping I could dodge the bullet this time.
Guess not.
Oh well.
I'm now going to be making my bucket list of things I want to do before I'm too sick to be able to do them.
Simple things like, see my twin grandbabies born.
See Avatar in the theaters
(not necessarily in that order of course)
::SIGH::

I hope Talib's news is better. But again, not likely with the way our luck is running.
I'm going now, I'll keep everyone posted as always.