Am I ready?

Ready to go back to work?
Considering I just had the first dream about working in several weeks, don't know if that's anxiety or longing.
Mentally, hmmm..was I ever really mentally there for working? (Don't answer that..I'll come after you. hehehe)
Mentally yes, I actually look forward to dealing with people again. People, not morons. Darn, wrong job then.
Okay okay...(Lord ah apologize...)
So yeah, actually need to build up my leg muscles again. I've gotten soft and will likely be sitting down a lot at first. I won't be able to do everything I was before. I have limited lifting capacity in my right arm, not a lot of overhead movement and not a lot of bending over. But, that is not required for talking to people and pointing where to go. I'll go over limitations with the doctor this week and get the paperwork straight.
But yes, I need to get back to work and interact with people, use my brain more, laugh with coworkers, get hugs (left side ones) and generally reconnect with the world.
I guess this has been a test for retiring...which when I actually think about it may never happen. I always thought I was a very active person, you know needing to be around people and interacting..social type stuff. But now that I've been home for close to two months, just now starting to get to the point where I was getting used to not doing anything. It was the regular caffeine infusions that kept me a bit high strung I suppose.
I haven't had that much caffeine in my time off, and what I did have kept me up too late. Unless I had it early in the day and gave it time to get out of my system.
I still have to contact oncology and get an appointment with a doctor. Really odd that no one has called me. Since it costs me money/time on my phone still and it takes several minutes to call the referral nurse I guess that's my excuse for not getting on the ball with that. I'm hoping to get a new phone plan so I have a set amount every month and don't have to worry about running out of money.
I  have another session with the doctor today, a few more and then wait for a while and then gear up for another surgery to go in again for the implants.

Oh, I heard back from the gentleman that bought my Neytiri necklace for his daughter and he says she was thrilled with it and it fit like a glove. You don't know how tickled that makes me feel. Someone thought to let me know that something I did made someone happy.
I know, that happened a lot at work. People would come in and say they're garden is doing good, or advice I gave them was right on. But that's talk. This is something that I created and someone else is wearing as a gift.
It's different somehow.

So I'm ready to go back to work and get into a routine again.
Hopefully next year will be better in a lot of ways. I know this isn't over, but hoping that by this time next year it will all be done and over.


"There's no point in being grown up if you can't be childish sometimes."  -Dr. Who

Ain't that the truth. Goes along with the whole growing up and throwing snowballs and climbing trees.