Crying and frustrated at the system

 We will be short on rent this month because Medicare is being taken out of my check. I have a form to fill out so I will not have Medicare at all. I have MediCal that takes care of everything I need. Medicare is a scam meant for rich retired people that don't qualify for any other assistance so it's the only option they have.

I am absolutely just want to hit someone or have someone fix the problem now. It will get fixed but not this month. We need gas in the car to last the rest of the month, Jon's check is going to be depleted due to the stupid phone bill that was late, so if we have any money it's for rent and that's about it.

We haven't done laundry in three weeks because we needed the coins to get bottles of water. Our bedding hasn't been washed in two years because Jon doesn't want to use up all the laundry money on three loads just for bedding when he needs clothes washed.

We need the gas in the car to do school shuttle for Amber and we used half of that money for food. I haven't paid the electric bill in months, internet is due and so is my phone.

No there isn't any help out there other than minimal food assistance. Even if I report my income is lowered that doesn't help us in the long run for making rent and the other bills. 

I see why seniors are on the street or in homes where they don't have to pay rent. Or living in the dark using a candle or sterno to heat up food. 

THIS IS SOO FUCKING FRUSTRATING AND STUPID!