Me and my swiss cheese brain....
I was getting ready to leave today for our twice a week trek and went to look for my keys. They weren't in my bag, not in my shorts, not hanging on the hook, where the hell did I put them!? Panic sets in but we didn't have time to look thoroughly because we had minutes to spare before the bus arrived. So out we went with both of us worried all manner of ways my entire keychain could have gotten lost. No, never took them out and left them in a car or bus or other conveyance. Could they have fallen in the trash? I decided to knit and not worry about it because wherever they were, they would be found.
So, nothing horrendous happened I have two more sessions getting expanded, already called the radiation doctor and told them the situation but no call back yet. I got a 'Possible Spam Call' that was 858 but when I answered no one answered back so hung up, blocked and deleted. If I get a call from the doctor it's already in my contacts so not worried. Had a nice chat with the nurse and PA (Physician Assistant) during my visit, told them about losing my keys and they were sympathetic and empathetic, very nice girls.
Something I need to note is all my life I have had mental nudgings, warnings, and what I call karma echoes. If I find myself too often speaking badly about someone, complaining and not being understanding or empathetic something goes wrong. I coined the word, 'CARma' because more often than not, the universe finds a way of smacking me upside the head about it through my car. It breaks down in varying degrees of horrific or other small things happen. Ever since the One In the White House has been elected I have had nothing but alternate names, truths I have seen, denigrating everyone and anyone that is associated with him and generally pouring out bad juju. Well guess what, November 14 my car breaks down badly. Okay so you can explain it away because it is a mechanical issue and the reason will be found out and repaired...but would it have happened if I had not loaded my aura with negative vibes (as they say) ? Maybe, maybe not but it did happen.
Now I started to not be as angry and vociferous with negative emotions the last week or so and guess what? I discover Amber can pay to get my car fixed! Yay! Hmmmm I started up with the name calling and bad juju again this last week and look what happened... misplaced my keys.
So it can be explained away that my addled brain forgot that I had put them in the backpack two days ago and that would be right. But I had no idea where they were and on the way home I would look up and see someone that had dropped something but was unaware and pointed it out to them when I got up to get off the bus. Another time someone had fallen asleep and we reached the final stop and I woke her up not knowing if she intended to go that far and also pointed out that she had dropped her glasses. All the while feeling the grey cloud of karma slowly dissipating and I did one more deed of lifting a single seat for someone who had an overloaded walker and could barely walk themself but did a good deed just the same.
Because everyone (except a few) people are worthy of compassion and sympathy.
So we got home, it is now dark having been out of the apartment since 1 pm and didn't get home until after 6, we took care of groceries we bought (oh and discovered that El Pollo Loco takes EBT so we had dinner) and finally could relax a moment. I rolled up one of the bags and stuffed it in the cloth collection bag then stopped and stared at the backpack we had used on Tuesday.
Memory hit me in the face like a pie. I had put my keys in the front pocket of the backpack. Picked it up, showing Jon, unzipped the pocket and pulled my keys out. Big sigh of relief, we can sleep easy tonight.
Now I need to find out who can forward some money so I can pay my $175 SDGE bill and my $55 phone bill. I have about $40 left in the bank, Lyft account is zero and still have at least one more office visit before car gets fixed..maybe two.
Funny thing about that SDGE bill... they sent me the 'summary of my latest bill' for this coming month and said I owed .59. There's some kind of alternate electricity bonus so my October bill if not for paying for this month would be less than a dollar. 6 more months of the extra payments then have to be on good behavior but may still need help with bills.
We are trying folks, but it's really difficult when everything depends on getting caught up.
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