I have decided to stop dreaming big

 I've been playing the Pollyanna and trying to look for all the ins and outs of loans and purchasing a home and where.. buying a lot to build on and funding a home and all that... it's just pie in the sky dreaming. Which does nothing for us right now and only makes me frustrated and depressed now.

We don't have the funds right now to move or get a loan for a house. I've been doing it as a sort of pushing karma to make it happen but have come to grips with the reality that we just can't do it unless we get a lot of money. I've posted about the budget we have and what we need to move and find a new home. Every time Jon sees me looking at a place he looks over my shoulder and puts his two cents worth in or ooohs and aaahs about how good a place is. Thing is, the more I want to do something and the more people I tell, the less likely it will happen.

I've compared the cost of having a mobile home with a mortgage of $700 and a lot lease of about the same and it's actually more expensive than our current rent BUT, we wouldn't have to shell out $500+ for storage, electricity might be cheaper, some parks pay for water and sewer so it actually works out a little better despite the monthly being a bit higher. It's getting there that's the hard part.

$2000 to hire movers minimum, the cost of driving up there with a small trailer for us and even before that, we need to rebox a lot of things in storage which is about $125 for boxes and gas. We still have too much stuff to consolidate into one and if we did consolidate the cost of having a slightly larger unit would be the same as the two we have now.

So right now I'm focusing on paying rent for this month tomorrow and hoping we can make rent happen sooner next month then have to look for extra money to make rent in April when it goes up to $1000. That almost all of my check. We both still have storage and all the other bills to pay basically on Jon's check. Which would leave us broke for most of the month. Jon pitches in 500 when he gets paid the week after I do so he is contributing to rent. The rest of his check goes to his storage and phone, the rest of my money and the 500 he gives me does the same plus the electric bill and other sundry things. Going to call SS tomorrow and ask about getting retirement extra from Dave's retirement SS. Even if it's a few hundred it's extra that we need.

We went and picked up the food donation and ended up with 5 english cucumbers, a bag of small russets and tiny tangerines, assorted canned food, some spaghetti and even got some supplemental cat food for Rocky. The one clunker we got was a box of 40 'plant based protein patties'. In other words soy burgers. Beggars can't be choosers but we don't eat that much meat and if we do it's chicken or hamburger mixed in with something. I put the word out on facebook if anyone wants the remaining 38 since Jon and I both tried one. Maybe it's a mental thing but just not a fan, no flavor at all, and I would only keep it if it was the only thing in the freezer and I was starving and broke. Maybe it needed salt and pepper.

Not to that point yet. Don't think I'll get to that point. 

Here's a sunflower. Hope it makes someone happy and hoping for the best outcome for Ukraine.